Fairness

I went to speak to a counselor (not the fun kind).  I was surprised when in the midst of talking, he asked me if I ever thought that this was not fair.  I told him that it was a stupid thing to think--what is fairness, after all.  Fairness in the health sense is the thought that some higher power gave me a disease rather than, perhaps, someone more deserving of a disease.  Being that the highest power that I believe in is The New Yorker, this is a silly thought.

But damn, did that plant a thought into my head.

I don't think of my diagnosis as unfair.  It happened.  But I have begun to have less tolerance for those who have their health and, frankly, do stupid things.  It has materialized mostly as I watch people I know and people I don't know smoke.  Growing up with a mother who smoked, my frustration was nothing new.  But it's been taken to a new level.

So in that sense, it's not fair.  I didn't smoke because of asthma (add it to the list) but I also ate healthy and organic.  And look where it got me.  

Intelligent design proponents, eat your heart out.